Continuing to lose.

I managed not to eat much over thanksgiving, I tried to keep myself busy. Really difficult though.. I'm bordering between 121 and 122. Lunges & squats helped me kick two pounds off super fast, because I haven't done them in forever. I bought and read the books Unbearable Lightness and The Best Little Girl in the World. I preferred the first over the last, but my favorite is still Thin, the one mentioned below. I am getting a gym membership tonight because it is now too cold to run outside. But on another note, I love reading your guys' blogs and looking at all of your amazing thinspo. Its great motivation! :)

Today's meals:
Instant plain oatmeal: 100 cal
Light vanilla yogurt: 80 cal
Tuna with light mayo: 140
TOTAL: 320

Calories burned exercising: 750

It's been awhile..

I just haven't felt like blogging lately, but I still get on everyday. Thanks for your comments everyone! My weight's been at a solid 122. I went to a counselor who told me my weight is too low. But of course I don't see it. So I have to go back next week and start talking about my "self-esteem issues." Definitely not looking forward to that. Because now I'll have someone checking weekly on my weight. Ew. The recommended weight for my height is 135-155. That's disgusting, and I would know! Tall people should not be fat! I read a book called "Thin" by Grace something. I really liked it for the most part. Pick yourself up a copy. :)

Strength & Control

Yesterday's fast was almost a success; I just ate a 80cal vanilla yogurt.
Today's meals:
1/2 cup brown rice w/ veggies: 159
100 cal soup: 160
TOTAL: 319
I ended up purging the soup, but I'll still count it anyways because who knows how many calories my body managed to store.
And plus I burned 692 exercising. I hit 124 again. I haven't been 123 since I was a freshman in high school....oh my!

binge fest

This is what I currently look like:

Sad to say I binged over the last week. Its like everyday I woke up and could not stop eating. I think it maybe had something to do with the medicine my doctor prescribed..zoloft and xanax. If that's the case then I'll definitely be switching. Although I do love the xanax. It's so calming. Yesterday My calorie intake was only 150.. and today I will be fasting. I'm back to 127. I just feel like a failure and so discouraged.