I feel no less repulsive.

Friday through Saturday I didn't eat anything. I wasn't purposely fasting. There were so many things on my mind, I was too distracted to eat. Yesterday I caved and had a 500 calorie lasagna dinner, but purged it back up. And today I had a 180 calorie salad, followed by running a couple miles. I'm back with Sam. He asked me to move in with him, so I've decided to go ahead with that. If things don't work out, I can always come home. He loves me but I'm not sure if I love him. If I was sane I would but I still am in love with someone who's unavailable. He's single, but he's not ready to grow up and take responsibility for our son.
Cheers,

And now my heart is stone cold...

...because you've gone away. I don't feel like writing much, I'm in a weird funk. So, I thought I'd just do a thinspo post.
xo LO

Short-Lived

SO many things have happened since my last post. I broke up with my child's father. (Yes I have a three year old.) I started dating this new guy Sam...we moved to Denver, Colorado from Illinois then two weeks later we moved back to Illinois. I am devastated. I fell in love with Denver in the short time I was there. The reason we moved back you ask? Because he wasn't able to get into school there being he is almost done getting his masters and some of his credits wouldn't transfer. I broke up with him during the drive home. I don't think I even loved him, I just wanted an adventure. I'm quite compulsive. My weight also went back up to 125, being that the only option of food most of the time was fast food. Being 5'10 my body hates being lower than 120. But I'm finally back on track and have more motivation than ever to get the weight off. I find that when I let myself be happy in a relationship, I gain weight. So I'd rather be single and be miserable, pathetic huh? The only good news I have is that I turned 21! Finally.
Enjoy some thinspo...