Fresh out of the psych ward.

After overdosing on 60 xanax, the hospital decided to throw me in a Psychiatry Hospital...where I was also diagnosed for an eating disorder for the second time this year. Their idea of treatment was a joke. They watched and wrote down everything I ate...but they didn't know I would run to my bathroom and purge everything. I ended up gaining x pounds because a toilet wasn't always accessible. :/ But luckily I am back down to 115. Does anyone have any advice to prevent fainting? Its happened to me three times now and its quite embarrassing because all three times I've been in public. Thank you for your comments and I see have some new followers. Hello :D

ME as of today:

So Far..

I've lost 6lbs in 2 days on the russian gymnast diet...but I also biked 30mi yesterday, so that could have something to do with it ;)

The Russian Gymnast Diet

Breakfast: Glass of orange juice or slice of low calorie bread or black coffee
Lunch: fruit salad or medium apple
Dinner: 8 baby carrots or green apple

You can lose up to 15lb per week.
Drink as much water as you can.
Exercise is unnecessary.


..but you know I'll exercise anyways!
Attempting this diet for at least two weeks. Wish me luck :)

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I haven't been eating (for you)

Day two of the fast was successful. This is the longest I've gone so I feel pretty good about it. Hopefully today goes just as well. Maybe I'll extend it a few days...who knows!

xo LO

I learned to live half alive

Fasting for three days, I need to get this shit out of me.
Wish me luck.


Day one is successful. Go diet pills.
xo Lo

You Don't Need It

My father looked at me while I was on the elliptical today and told me "not to become anorexic." I laughed and said of course not. One just can't become anorexic. Its a disease that takes hold slowly over time. I've always been weight consious but that doesn't mean I was anorexic in any means. It takes over slowly as the diet you thought you were taking grows into something bigger. Eating less, exercising more, withdrawing yourself from people in fear that they might make you eat. That's how I feel anyways.
As far as exercise and my meals for today, here's the list:

2/23/11
Eats:
Protein Bar: 180 cal
Whole Wheat English Muffin with fat free jelly: 130 cal
1/2 Small Apple: 28
Total: 338

Exercise:
2.6 Mile Hike: 1000 calories burned
Elliptical: 120 calories burned
Total Calories Burned: 1120

Neely O'Hara

^^^^^ yes, that's me.

Today was uneventful. I went to hike Squaw peak but I felt so weak that we had to turn around early. I feel my anxiety coming back slowly. It only rears its ugly head sometimes...but enough for me to get scared again. It might be because I've been eating less. Actually, I'm pretty sure thats why. I would think my medications would help, but they're only slightly numbing the attacks. My meals consisted of one 170 calorie protein bar before the hike, a 58 calorie salad (no dressing,) and a few chicken fingers that I ended throwing up. I've been consuming myself in thinspo, it actually really helps. Also, the diet pills are definitely curbing my appetite. I never feel hungry even when my stomachs empty.

Enjoy! xo Lo